I mean, I have never bought flowers or chocolates or gifts for anyone on Valentine's.
I have never dated anyone on that day too.
18 years old, 18 meaningless Valentine's Days.
But I have always spent the Valentine's nicely.
No difference this year.
I went back to my high school to pre-celebrate Chinese New Year.
It's always nice to go back your old school,
you get to see the people you know or acquaint,
you get to know how much the school's changed when you hadn't been around,
you get to feel the old beautiful memories that will forever lie in the school.
you get to be nostalgic, in a good way.
You get to be happy.
It's really different to be a non-hinhua-student in Hin Hua.
When I went to visit my Chinese teacher,
I no longer felt she was my teacher,
I felt more like she was my friend.
She is around 25,
and last year she gave me a lot of suggestions of writing good essays,
and provided some encouragements on my decision about my future,
and even shared her university life in China with me.
She is my youngest teacher.
Sometimes I'd rather call her by her name than by the word 'teacher'.
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And then I went to find my English teacher too, Ms Tina.
When I was in her class last year,
I was always quiet and afraid of talking too much to her.
But today,
as a grown college student,
I found myself talking to her casually and easily.
I teased her about her laziness as a teacher,
she asked me about my college life,
I told her that Jia Xin brought me to see prostitutes in the middle of the night,
she wanted me to teach his son Chinese,
I said my English class in college is strange,
she proposed that we should come back to see her every time we go back to Hin Hua,
I answered 'of course'.
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It feels amazing to chit-chat with someone you used to not talk to frequently,
because then you know,
they are perhaps older than us,
but they are very approachable too.
And then I met Lee Lee, a very good friend of mine.
we didn't have a long talk since we were both busy,
but she gave me a handmade cake as my birthday present.
I love the cake so much,
it's not I crave for cake,
but you know it's nice to have someone preparing you a cake as a present.
And today she broke an inconsequential record in my life.
She is the only one who gives me present in a six consecutive years.
I have repeated it like 300 times, but again,
I have to say that she is one of my most important friends in my life,
not because of the record,
but every little thing she has done to me.
We promised that we should hang out one day.
We haven't had a long conservation for a really long time.
After that I hung out with my senior 2 classmates,
not going to elaborate it,
because we usually hang out until I feel bored to describe it,
but I will never get bored to hang out with you guys!
Here I have to make a clarification,
I haven't liked or loved anyone in 2 or 3 years.
Right now, I have no feelings for anyone either.
The reason I am saying this is because my friends always think that I like her or her or her or her.
And then they will publicly and loudly tease me when 'one of hers' approaches,
and I don't want that to happen again.
It is not hilarious, it is not healthy, it is not good,
but it deteriorates my friendships with them.
I feel so annoyed about this.
And don't doubt me, it's really true.
I liked someone in junior 2.
I had feelings for someone in senior 1.
I had feelings for another one in senior 2.
Since then, I have not liked anyone or had feelings for anyone.
