Crazily exciting day. Crazily enjoyable day. Crazily meaningful day.
Crazily tiring day too.
In the morning,
I went to Hin Hua High School to play basketball with my junior classmates.
It was really strange,
to know that everybody had changed so enormously,
everybody had become somebody that I no longer easily recognize.
Everybody changes all the time,
but three-year change is just too unacceptably large.
I still can't figure out if maturity or puberty changed them so much.
Afternoon,
went to Botanic Club to play badminton with my senior classmates.
we actually spent more time chattering than playing badminton,
because all of us were somehow lethargic.
Or maybe more eager to gossip and know how everybody's been.
At night,
it was our S2SK party.
I think the party was still crazy,
although it wasn't as crazy as the parties we had before.
Maybe it's because the guitarist din't come.
Maybe our best vocal din't show up.
But I could see that we still love each other,
we still love spending time with each other.
There is something invisible and powerful that binds us together so hard.
I can't figure it out, too.
I love them so much.
I feel natural to be around them all the time.
I can be completely insane, or completely myself.
I felt a surge of something emotional yesterday,
when I was overthinking on my way home at 2a.m..
I don't know if I should talk about this,
but then it's my blog,
I have the carte blanche to say anything I want,
and if I don't say this today,
maybe I don't have the opportunity to do so anymore.
It's like,
my friends always wonder, or ask me if I like her,
you know, 'that like',
and my answer is always 'oh shut up'.
This question had never bothered me much,
but yesterday it appeared in my mind out of nowhere.
"Do I?"
And I of course couldn't say 'oh shut up' to myself,
but I, at the same time, couldn't produce a certain answer.
So what I was thinking is,
I like her of course,
she is cool and she knows I know that.
But speaking of 'that like',
I don't know, I really don't but I don't think the answer is important,
it's like sometimes when you make a really good friend of opposite sex you just wanna stay with the friendship,
at times, or maybe at all times, people tend to think that when you reach a certain intimate relationship with your friend of opposite sex you have to 'that like' her,
and it's so fallacious.
People say that we manipulate ourselves,
but our feeling is something that we couldn't easily manipulate.
OMG I think I can be a philosopher.
