a month closer to SPM.
But optimistically,
a month closer to College Life.
(I know college life is not as easy and enjoyable and fun as I now think,
just don't ruin my motivational anticipation,
all I need is motivation right now.)
You may wonder why I update a post after so long,
(or maybe you may not.)
well I have to clarify that writing blog is still one of my favourite things to do,
just I've been crazily busy about the class party, the SPM trial, the class trip.
Honestly,
I feel slightly guilty everyday I select not to update.
I really do.
Because I am attending a wedding,
which means I have hours to kill
plus I've thwarted a lot of things inside my heart,
so perhaps it will be a super long post.
And from what have appeared in my mind,
it will be a detailed and HONEST post.
In order not to be depressed as I always am in writing blog,
I would like to talk about ENGLISH.
Many of my friends around me wonder why my English improved so much in junior 3.
I remember that when I was in junior 1 & 2,
My english really sucks.
But I don't know why and when,
I just had a sudden impulse to learn English.
And it's not a difficult process,
I just read a lot of articles and novels and mottos and whatever.
I personally think that,
English is the most beautiful language in the world.
I even think that,
Every language is beautiful in the world,
including the killing B.M.. (no jokes, I think so.)
And,
And,
And that's why,
I hope I can learn French after my unofficial graduation from high school.
Next,
I wanna talk about music.
Frankly,
music plays a irreplaceable role in my life.
When I am happy,
I listen to music.
When I am depressed,
I listen to music.
When I am alone,
I listen to music.
Without the presence of music in my life,
I would literally die.
Music is so unique that,
everybody has different understanding about it,
and this is the main reason I love music.
And what makes a song special is the story a composer tries to tell.
I couldn't precisely describe 'why I love music',
although I tried,
but it's just amazing.
Isn't it beautiful to lie on a beach or a field,
listening to your favourite songs?
Isn't it?
Yesterday is my school marathon day.
Since this is the last marathon in my high school life,
probably in my life too,
I opted to try my best to get something.
Running marathon is never a joke.
When I had run 2km,
I already felt extremely exhausted,
and I still had 3 km to go.
That feeling was desperate.
But all I told myself was keep on!! never give up!!
Right after completing the run,
I partly lost my consciousness,
Even couldn't walk properly.
My world was all blur and spinning.
And then my English teacher saw me being DYING,
she immediately did some treatments on me.
And I got 56th finally.
Maybe you will laugh at me with this,
but hey at least I tried so hard,
I risked my life to complete the run.
If I hadn't done so,
I would have regretted for that for the rest of my life.
Well,
finally I wanna say something,
in a brief and vague way.
Love is not an easy thing.
It's not just I love you you love me,
These 3 words is never enough to ensure the perpetuity of your marriage,
So when you find you have too many antagonistic interests or dreams or aims or whatever against your crush's,
you just have to let go,
because you will soon have there are too many setbacks and obstacles to conquer,
and you will eventually give up.
Love is not an easy thing.
Sorry for trying to be experienced,
which I am not.
I am shit at this.
I love the times I smile and laugh naturally.
